Monday, March 21, 2011

Theology, meet Reality

What happens when your theology has to meet the road of life? What do you say that you believe about God? What do you actually believe about Him? 

These are several of the questions that I have been asking myself since about 10 PM Sunday night. Caleb had been coughing and was really laboring to breathe. He hadn't really shown any other symptoms other than these, but the symptoms were persistent enough to keep him (and Brian & I) awake. We prayed that God would heal him and believe that God is able to do those kinds of things...even today. Around 2 AM, after Caleb had thrown up for the fourth time and after it was clear that something was wrong, Brian loaded him up and took him to the ER. 

As I watched the taillights of my Altima leave my driveway and then the subdivision, the questions started. 

"God, you do know that I love that little man, right?"
"God, are you going to take care of him? He's my boy, remember?"
"I know that You say that all things work together for the good of those who love You... but does this fit?"

Brian told me on the phone a while ago that seeing the doctors put an IV in Caleb was really tough and that he was so glad that I hadn't been there to see it. Whew! "Lord, that's my son! Take care of him, please?"

I just received a call from Brian saying that Baptist wants to transfer him to Sacred Heart for further testing and care. I have had to speak really firmly with myself and reject the tendency to worry. It's hard to reject and easy to embrace. But it [worry] is so unfruitful!

Jesus, may Your Name be lifted high.
Help me to know & believe You... the real You and not some version of You that is comfortable. Help my theology to match my reality. 

And please help me to trust that You hold my little boy in the palm of your hand and that you love him way more than I ever could.
at 5:02 AM

2 Reactions:

BeckyJ said...

Praying for you and your sweet boy. Is it pneumonia?
It's comforting to know that God can handle your tough questions, isn't it?
Love you guys.

March 21, 2011 10:48 AM
Appollo Schloss said...

Press on Sister! Trials can be so refreshing, in an eternal kind-of way. It's so sweet to see you calling out to our God. Sure evidence that He's still got you!

March 23, 2011 10:06 AM

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Colossians 1:21-23, ESV

21 And you, who once were alienated and hostile in mind, doing evil deeds, 22 he has now reconciled in his body of flesh by his death, in order to present you holy and blameless and above reproach before him, 23 if indeed you continue in the faith, stable and steadfast, not shifting from the hope of the gospel that you heard, which has been proclaimed in all creation under heaven, and of which I, Paul, became a minister.



Philippians 2:1-11, ESV

So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, 2 complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. 3 Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. 4 Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. 5 Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, 6 who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, 7 but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. 8 And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. 9 Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, 10 so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11 and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.