Affects

I know, I know...It's been a while. Life is pretty hectic these days. Brian and I have both been out of town (I travelled to Huntsville to visit some relatives and Brian ventured to Helen, GA to put his PawPaw's lot up for sale). We are moving back to Pensacola in ten or eleven days and moving is always crazy for me. I've been reading Becky's blog about OCD and I believe that I may battle it a bit. I don't know for sure, seeing as I have never been diagnosed. I see a lot of the signs of the disorder in myself and am especially aware of it because of the lack of complete and total order in my life because we are in between houses. Perhaps I am behaving as any normal female would in a time of craziness; however, if you know me well, you know that I have a strange organization and cleaning obsession. Anyway, onto other things... I have had a rough couple of days here lately with my big, bad attitude, or BBA as I like to call it. I don't know what it is in me (sin!) that causes me to be so irritable and ill-spirited when things are not working out as I would have them to. I have been so weird and MEAN the past two days. I feel like my life is completely out of order, physically, and it is affecting everything within reach. I see this in hindsight... way after I have shown my BBA to Brian and others in the path of its destruction. I am busy trying to find a job. Supposedly, now the Master's degree is the new Bachelor's. There is such inflation with regard to education these days. Ack. I have no desire to seek satitisfaction within a career field, per se; however, I am looking to busy myself with tasks that create an income (for now, while we have no small children). Brian and I are really into finding ways to cut costs and save money. We are even brainstorming about how to live mortgage-free (see Rob Roy's Mortgage Free for more details). I have applied for many different jobs, but have been denied most (if not all) opportunities because of a lack of experience. Doesn't that keep me from gaining experience? Sick cycle carousel.